“Self-destruction awoke the sleeping-man in me”

There was a time in my life when i ran away from EVERYTHING!

I ran away from failure and I ran away from success, my heart simply didn't have the 'balls' to contain both extremes!

I ran till my lungs couldn't push me anymore, I ran till my legs hurt and my toes became sore! I ran because my inner-man felt inferior before everyone, everything and always slid off his bearing.

We all draw inspiration, motivation, determination or inner-strength from various sources. Some draw it from religion or witch-craft while others turn to drugs or role models! I chose self-destruction!

After realizing that my clean-cut image, fresh-innocent persona was my main character-sprout undoing, I chose to break out, run and for the first time LIVE....

I broke out and 'partied' like I owned the whole place,

I broke out and drunk till I dropped,

I broke out and loved till I hurt!

I broke out stood-out and spoke-out what I felt was right and pushed for it, till it broke my back.

I broke out, got loose, ran mad and for once LIVED!

I ran madly with the world, till my lungs couldn't push me anymore.

I ran till my legs hurt and toes became sore,

I ran till I felt broken, cold...and had to stop!

I awoke the crazy man in me and he enjoyed every bit of the experience, he now walks freely with-out any craving to run again!

#Omukiga-Wekiniga

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"Publicly Confessing Infidelity is simply Self-Contempt"

A prominent Kenyan advocate David Oyatta has of recent been dragged into the public "scrutinious-eye" by his wife Njeri Mucheru-Oyatta for alleged adulterous escapades!

Njeri an avid blogger decided to 'slaughter' her husband's infidelity 'errands' on her blog www.njerimucheru.com as a way of 'unveiling' her husband's dirty-image and shockingly, in her own words, " To help my husband who i still love to turn to Jesus Christ and repent."

 Fast switch to Uganda's platform, in under a month our local media has been riddled with prominent individuals in the born-again community publicly coming out and confessing their below the belt escapades!!
The constants in both cases are kids fathered else-where!!
But kids and sex are not today our drinking pot issues, today we break-down the societal-illness of publicly 'rinsing' one's domestic matters in a self-induced effort to draw worldly forgiveness, and the move being labelled 'Godly' in cleansing one's physical and spiritual image!!

Domestic affairs primarily involve two people and on a more spread out scene, may involve more persons that are directed affected by an issue or occurrence at hand. The route to seek forgiveness, i believe should first involve the aggrieved/affected party before it spreads out to the outer-coat of the second party that must be equally directly affected by the matter.

Once you all find a common ground to either forgive each other or part ways, that should be done on a more personal disposition than inviting the whole world to poke ideas and judgement on issues they are totally alien to! The decision to seek God's forgiveness should be again a personal bargain and indulgence.

Seeking for worldly forgiveness when we are yet to find personal and spiritual forgiveness is cheap public-pity purchase that breeds self contempt and voluntary humiliation!
#Omukiga-Wekiniga

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"The viral Mini-skirt Returns"

Is it the impropriety of cloth wear!
Or the caginess of norms and cultures?

Is it the disguise of new-age dressing trend and fashion!
Or the rhetoric of faith and moral values?

Do we hang from the noose of dressing norms we legislate?
Or suspend by the order of Dressing-rights!
@Gyezimania

'Unfortunately faith-extremism is here to stay'

I was meant to write about the wild-sweeping topic of publicly confessing infidelity which of recent has seen individuals invite the whole world into their 'bedrooms', but that will be for another Drinking Pot sitting.

In the wake of the Sept 21/13 siege of the upscale Westgate Mall in Nairobi,Kenya, i was moved to also comment on the tragedy and pillars that seem to have given it, its current bearing! Unfortunately the perpetuators of the siege are said to have direct links to the Islamist terror group Al Shabaab and the wider network of the Al Qaeda militants.

The constants between these two groups is the 'brutal' ride on the Islamic faith as a peddle slab to spread what they view as religiously and politically correct new world-order norms!

The continued use of terror behind the shield of Islam has cast a dark cloud over the Islamic faith with most people questioning whether it's an out-right faith of extremism that teaches the use of terror to draw attention and force religious conversion!

However use of extremism has not been limited to the Islamic faith or a first in the religious setting, believe it or not all religions were built on pillars of faith extremism and terror, and such undertakings are still existent in all our different religious sects.

When the 'protestant' sect broke away from the main-stream Church-file, they were labeled (or called them selves) protestors against what they viewed as religiously incorrect practices in the main-stream church. What ensued were verbal and out-right brutal religious wars against each other. A catholic priest in Kanungu District bundled over 1000 followers and burnt them alive on pretext of fast tracking their journey to heaven!

Before the 1787 French Revolution the Church (clergy) had become eternally intertwined with the French Royal family and it was always upon the 'wise counsel' of the men of God that the monarchy stamped one of the most brutal reigns in European history! They divided the French populace into classes and owned rights to a privileged life or a life of peasantry!

Up to now the Catholic Church does not allow it's leaders to either marry, get married or have kids, yet they counsel the laity on marriage problems and how to make it work! It never gets any extreme or hypocritical than this! 

Today church leaders are sub-consciously preaching hatred towards other 'rival' faith sects labeling them as evil and 'un-Godly' without bothering about the end-points of their sermons. 

We have had countless cases of traditional spiritual leaders sacrificing human lives in effort to enable their clients to have good luck, wealth or dispel curses. 

We still have age-old cultural practices that view albinos, disabled kids and baby girls as curses and shouldn’t be given a chance at life. 

This was way before the Arab merchants taught Arabic and Islam, way before the white missionaries preached Christianity to traditional kings and their subjects.

Therefore to single out one faith as root perpetuators of extremism is very unfortunate, we might differ in methods that we use to push our causes to the fore, but that doesn’t make us any lesser of terrorists!

@Gyezimania

"Mistaking Reservedness for Self-centeredness"

Though it has become quite plain that we are all tailored from a different skin texture, character-bearing and behavioral exudence, we are still sub-consciously stuck in a static-kind of web-thinking that there are clear, well set out ways on how we should lead our lives and relate to one another!

We still hinge our behavioral etiquette on respecting elders (unquestionably), accord non-refrained courtesy to all visitors (no matter how we think ill of them), and most grand of all, is to always exude an open character that relates to almost anyone and everyone. You must be full free spirit, engaging and unalterably accessible at all time.

Unfortunately as we struggle to appease the societal norm-ghosts we tramp upon and tread down on our inner-character bearing, and in the end we become highly technical hypocrites! Always smiling and engaging but spite-hearted and very indifferent.

We should always endeavor to freely settle into our mother-character and society will define and relate to us along that character-rail.

Just like some people are naturally born full of free spirit and charm towards everyone even on initial acquaintance, some people (like me) need time to fully grow with in an environment before getting actively plugged in!

We tend to create a kind of “buffer circle” around us that most people wrongly perceive as self-centeredness. We usually use this “buffer-circle” to read and study other persons' characters and see how best we can jell with them, while still hooked to our comfort zone.

Character-reservedness is never self-centeredness but a more cautious and observant personal trait, that should be given room to roam and sprout.

#Omukiga-Wekiniga

Friends we should keep at the hand shake level

I sat quietly with arms tightly held across my chest and attentively internalizing the visiting pastor's word. The man of God strongly preached away at friends we should keep close and those we must keep closer!

Of all the sermon and call by the man of God, i zeroed it home that all friends are principally broken down into two, 'additional' and 'subtractive' friends.
Grainly broken down to denote additional friends as individuals we get acquainted to and their presence in our lives adds value. We become better individuals around them, and in short they cause positive impact on us.

The second lot of subtractive friends are ones i call 'wrong' company, they carry every ounce of negative energy around them and are ready to spread it freely to whoever cares!
They not only nourish you with a negative spirit, they also deprive you of the little that you have, they cripple your personal growth, progress and independence.

But that was 3-weeks back and that mind enriching sermon must have gotten stored some where far at the back of my head, however, an acquaintance i made shortly after that church service, last week triggered the discovery of a rare form of friendship that knocked my conscience off the rail!

There is a kind of terrible, call it dangerous form of friendship that's very venomous, and i call it 'just-just' friendship! Such friends are very hard to categorize and pin them down as either additional, subtractive friends or out-right enemies!
Their friendship scale can in equal measure swing from close friendship to bitter-mint enemies.

The worst part is that you always tend to share a rich degree of personal and extended info with them, in that when the relationship crosses the red-line, they have a healthy stock of ammunition to fire against you!
These are the kind of acquaintances whose greeting-level should remain at just a hand-shake, coz when you offer to hug them... U will be embracing a serpent!
#Omukiga-Wekiniga

"Self-shackled Journalism Trade"

When the front-line commandant turns the rifle on his own head, and the King's chief executioner tightens the noose around his own neck, then it "slipperily" slides home that ants have attacked the hunters' hub!

Before traditional media space was brightly shone upon by the liberalism ray of light, practitioners that dug into the trade broke sweat on the sole ground of being 'eyes and ears' of the public. They executed their cardinal 4th estate duty for the general good of the public, that not only portrayed them as professional rumor-mongers but also as astute information engineers at tickling the public to act and get moving to a positive direction.

But when liberalism crept into the watch-man's tower cubicle, he came along with his commercialism twin-brother and both crippled the mighty man's strong feet that stood guard of the Boss' values and norms.

Today news reporters(labelled so quite absurdly) will ride on a 'half false' or 'half baked' story simply because of an 'illusionist' mind-note that 'he who alleges that the story is false must prove'. This also is opportunely exploited because it tickles the audience's attention and breeds healthy ground to be exploited by the commercialism twin brother.

Journalists(correctly put) are now refrained from crediting a rival news source for breaking a 'good story' for a 'sorry' reason that i call fear of tilting the audience advantage scale. However, they are quick at drawing daggers when a rival news source is pinned for outing a 'false story' and will announce or print their name in 'Bold' and 'Caps on.'

Disturbingly, this commercial-pined rivalry has trickled down to our humane fiber and am not surprised when disaster or tragedy strikes one of our own, we get 'jelly kneed' to name the media house one worked for, if at all we even cue it in, in our official news tube!!
#Omukiga-Wekiniga!

FINALLY HOME! Read only pieces...

THE VOYAGE!

Back and forth the docked ship rocks away in rhyme with the sea-waves' rhythm,

Comfortably resting her head in the refined grains of the sea-shore white sand!

Years of flirting with the sea-waves steadily eating away at her base-lining!

Back and forth she rocks away in rhyme with the sea-waves rhythm!

Docked at the sea-port awaiting the next sea-journey mission,

Could it be the twin Islands again, the black sea-port or more days of rest at the sea-port!

Back and forth she still rocks away in rhyme with the sea-waves rhythm!

 Feeling much lighter now but wary of the load to be carried later,

Years of continued voyage have made her close to sea-storms,

Decades of sea-travels and troubles have made her relate with the sea-life and its enemies!

Back and forth the ship still rocks away in rhyme with the sea-waves' rhythm!

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NEXT TIME NOT THE LAST TIME!

Next time feels like a good time,

Quite better than last time,

Which was almost like the worst time?

But day time ain't nothing like night time,

We act much saner during day time,

But delve into the unthinkable when it gets to night time!

We can never save time, but we can make something use-ful out of time!

We never have enough time on our hands, but we still play with time, all the time!

Before we know it,

We are running low on time and out of time! 

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DREAM-LIGHT

Seeking indulgence of the higher power,

Severing what’s left of the hope-flesh,

Conquering mountains deemed insurmountable,

Swirling around odds pronounced uncertain,

Battling murky-waters that steadily fill up the wind-pipe,

Muscling horizons that beacon the dream-light at the peak,

Facing our dream-journeys with might,

Facing our destiny with dignity! 

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